Just finished radiation treatment number 1 of 34. My chemo drug Temodar showed up this morning, so I was able to take it in time before the treatment. I'll admit, I was very nervous and anxious before hand, but a small prayer to God asking for strength, followed by the statement that my life is in His hands to do with to do with me as he sees fit, and he decides everything outlined for me, and I will commit to not fighting him on what ever he decides for me, all I can ask just let me know what he wants me to do. I will do it to the best of my ability.
The treatment was fast and painless, though I do have some slight stomach cramping, but I blame this on nerves. And I am tired but I was up at 3:30 typing the first half of this update..Nothing a power nap won't cure. I treated my wife to lunch at her favorite,- Pop-eye's. While driving back home I got increasingly sleepy. Walking from the car to the house was a minor chore. I feel it know. It feels like all my muscles are suddenly heavier. This is good. It tells me the base line I'll be starting at. My determination will pull me through. I can handle this. I just be moving slower. But the fatigue will probably assist me in sleeping through the night. Which I haven't done since the surgery. Since coming home almost 5 weeks ago, I have been taking a steroid that keeps the swelling down in my head, assisting in protecting me from seizures. My appetite has been out of control. I am actually not hungry for a change. Thank goodness. The steroid has me up every two hours, as it is.
My house is being invaded tonight by ladies from the church, for which Kandi has been cooking all day, in preparations for.
So I am escaping and going to hang out with a buddy of mine at Chili's for some male bonding. My energy level feels similar to level I had about a week after the surgery. I just don't have the intense lower back pain that I suffered from after the surgery. I am thankful for this. That kept me off my feet for longer than I wanted.
Isaiah 41:10
"Fear thou not, for I am with thee, be not dismayed, for I am with thee; be not dismayed, for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea;I will uphold thee with the right hand of my rightteousness. "
OK my friend, start counting them down!! It will be over with before you know it, I promise. Fatigue gets a bit worse as you go on -- they told me radiation is like putting on coats of paint - the effects are cummulative. 28 treatments were over before I knew it. God's got your back and you have my prayers! Love, Colleen
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